Chapter 529:.

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So I was not allowed to see Derek, nor could I attend his funeral or take him home. All that stood between us was a regular door, but my hands were completely tied and I couldn’t do anything about it.

I refused to leave. It was absolutely useless to try to persuade me to leave.

The screams of my two children brought me back to reality. Perhaps they were influenced by hearing me wail, or perhaps they also felt the pain of losing their father at their tender age.

“Let’s go back now. The children are hungry,” Alvaro said.

I couldn’t remember how I had left the hospital. The rain was pouring down with intensifying vigor. I didn’t even want to protect myself from the downpour. I walked straight through the rain. Alvaro shouted behind me, but I ignored him. The rain was nothing to me. The only thing I felt was my intense heartache. I was desperate for the rain to wake me up.

It must be a nightmare. Yes, this must all be a dream. A figment of my imagination. They had called him a martyr, hadn’t they? What the hell had happened to him? It was so ridiculous.

I walked in the rain and Timmy stayed in the car beside me.

He drove slowly keeping up with me. “Get in the car. I’ll take you home,” he told me.

Alvaro sat in the back seat of the car while holding the twins in his arms. He said to me, “Do you want the twins to suffer with you, too?”

The babies’ cries and the sound of the rain seemed miserable in my current situation. I was in the rain, soaked to the bone. I felt like I had lost everything. I had lost so much in my life. And without fail, every time I lost something, my life became absolutely miserable. I wanted so badly to be the person who was knocked down a hundred times but managed to get up a hundred and one.

But fate had dealt me such an unfair and cruel hand. Why, why did it take Derek away from me? I really didn’t know if I had the strength to get up this time. I felt this was the final blow. After all, I was only a human being, a woman of flesh and blood.

Timmy helped me into the car and I asked him to drive me to Derek’s villa. I took the keys out of my pocket and opened the door.

A familiar smell came to me. The familiar scene stung, and tears filled my eyes and spilled over my cheeks once again.

“Your clothes are soaked. Change them first or you’ll get sick,” Alvaro advised me. I was soaked to the bone, but I didn’t feel cold at all.

I walked in, step by step, my shoes filled to the brim with water. Everything seemed to be the same as when I came out. Rolling came out of nowhere, ran to my feet and rubbed against my shoes affectionately.

Alvaro put the kids down and went to get the luggage. Then he went straight to the kitchen to prepare food for them.

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I wasn’t even aware if Timmy had left yet. I went up the stairs like a zombie. There were several buggies in the hallway. I walked over and pushed open the door next to the strollers. It was a nicely decorated children’s room. There were lots of dolls and toy cars, and an unfinished model airplane. I imagined the scene where Derek was sitting cross-legged on the floor, head down, busy building the model airplane. I burst into tears again.

I pushed open the door to my room. Nothing had changed. There was a guitar on the couch and some sheet music on the coffee table. I walked over and picked up the sheet music.

“I’m afraid of sudden silence. I’m afraid of the ‘sudden attention’ of friends. I’m afraid of my painful memories. I’m afraid to hear about you. I miss you so much, where are you now, are you happy or not…?”

My heart felt as if a ten-ton truck had run over it. My tears splashed on the paper. There was also a usb disk on the coffee table.

I picked it up, turned on the computer and inserted the disk. On the disk was a video. It featured the handsome, charming man I had fallen in love with.

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